Its been 4 months since I left Joplin...and in that time I have only talked to one person from my life there (and he was the one who hurt me to the core) I never expected everyone i ever spent more than 5 minutes with in that time in my life to continue the relationship across the statelines. I knew my roomate wouldn't come see me when she came to town like she said she would, I knew some wouldn't have the guts to even try to make things right, and I knew there were some who would never think of me again...But there was one person, who I probably would have called my closest friend there... I remember when i left... I decided to leave, packed, and was out of town in less than 24 hours with little sleep and lots of tears... but before I left, she came to see me to say goodbye... and when she did she made a point to tell me "I will always be your friend, no matter where you live" Yet I tried to call her when I got home and she didn't answer or return my calls...I figured she either didn't have the guts or she never really cared in the first place. I didn't care which it really was... i had just sealed that envelope of my life and chalked it up to another empty goodbye.
Then today... I get this message...
My dearest Lindsay,
How much I miss my dearest redhead flamink!!!!
How are you Linds, I want you to know that I love you & that my life is so much emptier without you!
Please, please let me know how you are!
Ek is lief vif jou,
so now I get to reopen the freshly healed wound...what do I say?... do I act like nothing has happened when even when I was there she was going behind my back and played a part in why I left?... or do I curse in both English and Afrikaans and actually watch the frienship die? I would honestly like to forget that year and a half in my life and most all the people who came with it.
I want to thank all of the d-town crew...though life here is sometimes drama filled it is so far from hell that its beautiful. I love you all and appreciate you more than you know! | 
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I went to the doctor today to talk about cataract surgery and I'm still in a state of disbelief
... we're going to do the surgery WEDNESDAY!!!!... a week from tomorrow! then my bad eye will no longer be bad. Then, I got home and had a message to call my other eye doc's office... and they wanted to schedule more surgeries which will clear up my good eye so that its back to great again! 
And they're going to do that one 2 weeks from today!!! and a month later they'll do the same to the bad eye. So by April, I will be seeing like a normal person again! 
And by next week I hopefully should be able to drive at night, no more handicap girl! YAY!!!!!!!!!!! 
Tomorrow I go in for another shot in the eye
but that will get the inflammation down so these surgeries are possible... my doc may even do a laser deal on my eye while he's shooting it up... we'll see... literally!